It was a friendly night

It was a revelation for me and I think in someways for you. It was a step. Not just a baby step. I am praying that we have the wisdom to make the right steps. I know this sounds funny, but I did feel like I had dinner with a friend. FYI that is a good thing.

Snow reminds me

I wish we were stuck in the snow somewhere and the world would leave us alone. The world is our evil enemy most of the time.

I finally grew up

It will be hard to explain this to you or anyone. Tonight, I quit being my parent's child and grew up. There wasn't yelling or screaming. Just a conversation where I spoke about what I wanted and about the people I love. I admitted my sins and I informed them of theirs. God was with me. He calmed my soul and my mind to move forward. You also need to be thanked because you forced my hand. I would never had done this without you. I cannot predict the future, but I am thankful that this night happened and you were the primary reason. My love for you.

Thank you for dinner

I'm really not sure if you even look at this anymore. Thank you for dinner tonight. I'm glad you remembered my birthday. That is special. I know we are both trying. Good night. I will see you in my 40s.

Rob Thomas :: Someday Lyrics

Rob Thomas :: Someday Lyrics: "You can go
You can start all over again
You can try to find a way to make another day go by
You can hide
Hold all your feelings inside
You can try to carry on when all you wanna do is cry
And maybe someday we'll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better now that
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow, someday
Now we wait
And try to find another mistake
If you throw it all away then maybe you can change your mind
You can run
And when everything is over and done
You can shine a little light on everything around you
Man it's good to be someone
And maybe someday we'll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better now that
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow, someday
I don't wanna wait
I just wanna know
I just wanna hear you tell me so
Give it to me straight
Tell it to me slow
'Cuz maybe someday we'll figure all this out
We'll put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to just to feel better now
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow, someday
'Cuz sometimes we don't really notice
Just how good it can get
So maybe we should start all over
Start all over, again
'Cuz sometimes we don't really notice
Just how good it can get
So maybe we should start all over
Start all over, again"

Happy 3rd

In a few hours it will be the third of March. It will be three years and 9 months since I became your wife. I am now so alone. I am crying for you and how much I miss you. This is the most horrible pain I have ever known and I am scared that I will never know anything else.